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I’m going to borrow a conceit from one of my favorite authors and say that, “I have few rules in life, but whenever the fifth person in two weeks quits your firm and you had just spent the last five hours in the office jamming to Call Me Maybe in a white beeter…you have to write a blog post regardless of the hour you get home at.”

Reminder to self: don’t forget to finish the two half-written posts that you have queued up…

Reminder to self 2: teach the new interns before they come to work so they can work immediately and you can sleep…

Anyways, sometimes I think I spend so much time trying to avoid regrets that I seek out the most non-risk-averse course of action. This gets a lil bit confusing when I’m not sure which course is the risky one – to jump at the first good opportunity or to stick around striving for a better one to come?

Maybe, the answer is to skip the decision and jump to the part where you actually follow some course of action after your decision is made. Some might call it “lemonade out of lemons.” I call it “fuck it, I got this.” Finish your commitment? Learn something new? Take on my responsibility? Run the show while everyone is gone? Spend crazy money and expense it away? See, you can self-delude yourself into self-rationalizing anything…

In the grand scheme of things, someone else leaving doesn’t really affect me – other than pricking my somewhat effeminate sense of overdramaticalness that is. But I feel weird that everyone else gets to leave while I’m sticking around for some extremely nebulous reasons. Pride says, “you coulda been first!” Mischievously, pride might also say, take on all the good projects and HR tasks and see what happens when you get involved in everything and then leave. But finally, pride also forces me to withstand all challenges, whether real or imagine, and thus I keep a positive attitude despite the storm clouds brewing above me…

No “signs” or “events” this time (saving up my bullets for a more coherent battle) but lets just say it was fun plagiarizing and making up data so that my 55-page CIM looks professionally done #iwastaughtbythebest

-M

P.S. The meme that explains the difference between J and I…take a guess at who’s who 🙂